Hello, I’m BeingRobinson
I’m a married 30-something, my husband and I have been married for 12 years. We have been trying to have a baby, it hasn’t gone well. We have been trying to have a baby for about five years total. We started with trying a little (using charting, etc), then we had four rounds of IUI (none of them worked), we then moved onto IVF and Frozen Embryo Transfers (which also didn’t work). We have lost several babies, it’s been the hardest thing we have ever faced.
However, we aren’t the type to give up and give in. While the last five years have resulted in so much heartbreak and sorrow, we refuse to stop trying until we are out of options. We are now seeing light at the end of the tunnel. We still don’t have a baby, but after my doctor discovered a birth defect in my uterus in March of 2015, we have moved on to using our embryos with a gestational carrier surrogate.
My life feels like a science fiction novel some days. It’s surreal at times.
Infertility doesn’t define us, or our marriage, but it has been a huge part of our life the past five years. It’s changed us, pushed us and made us grow into better human beings. There have been so many things that have led us to this place in our life, it’s mind blowing some days to look back and see how everything has been woven together.
As for my husband and I, we love each other, our family, our friends, our fur babies and our life. It’s not always been an easy journey, but it sure has been beautiful. Thanks to my struggle with infertility I am now a freelance graphic and web designer and also own an Etsy shop we use to raise money for our infertility treatments. My husband is a lawyer, he is way smarter than me, I don’t mind. He is the solid, grounded, rock to my free-spirited style. We are basically polar opposites, but it works for us. This battle we are fighting has brought my husband and I closer together, strengthened our relationship and solidified the fact that we can get through this life together.
In our spare time you’ll likely find us together on our ski boat with our non-human person Milo. Or with friends or family, eating and laughing. We like all of these things equally.